i have no life





buns
u check out ur buns
after u've been in mine
perky from the work you did
before you see i'm fine

its not ur fault its me
its not the guy you are.
to touch the one who loves ya
and thank your lucky stars.

for the best one u have
u treat me most unfair
to be the best one I have seen
i can't wash you out my hair

i want to tell you
all of how my day was
and sing you songs
all of how my love was
wrapped up in thoughts of you
tenderly trying to get to you
and hope they'd reach your eyes
and tell u
what i'm dying to tell you.
no matter the other boys
i talk with and enjoy
their sweet kisses and company
its to you I say goodnight
and run my hands along
the space where u should lay
if only in my dreams
that we could stay this way...

new poem

They say u get what u give
I say that's not always true
There are those that give
And then there is you
U reap what you sow
And u are what you eat
This must explain
Why I feel like an ass
Groveling at your feet.
I fooled my heart and soul
Into a million parts
Broke down around your smile
as the target of ur darts.
Its casual what you want
And casual what you got
Its everything I have
Formed into a weighted clot
I've given everything I am
And wanted nothing in return
Except ur eyes to sparkle
And a flame forever to burn.
The suns have risen and lit
Our every wayward path
I wish we could walk together
instead of in this wrath

happens every time

i'm letting myself get to me.

no cigarettes. no ---d. no love. no photos.
no peace. no clean. no body. no joy. no smile.
I can fall so hard in love. And settle for his fist.
my youth is escaping me.
My talent is simmering to a vegetable.
I've locked myself away. afraid of excitement.
afraid of living.

i got stirred up this morning